daimn daimn daimn

okay so this girl is a BITCH! thinking she can say anything about me when i HAVNT EVEN DONE IT!!!!!!!! that girls gna get her lesson!!. and ive been with ONE guy, shes been with god knows if she can count them on her fingers and toes!!. my god! the nerveeeeeeeeee so pisssssssssssseddddddddddddd

over

its done , concluded finally , the simplest abbriviation is that nothing good ever lasts. its just how it is. but the last thing that was taken away was too special, my wall didnt stop my true feelings showing through.

The new one

okay, so, i thought the new one is sweet etc etc etc, BUT i didnt know so much drama wud erupt and cause a volcano eruption of chaos!!! first ,  a gir l tells me hes 2 timing me and that theres this other girl , WHAT? -but maybe i shudnt believe her straight away which is what i didnt do, but, i have to investigate by myself or ignore the warning signs and walk through this relationship blind folded and experiance unexpected blows to my self esteem and pride.

secondly, hes been telling some of his freinds about us, which i said wasnt appropriate in the FIRST PLACE!. i feel the need to kill some one i just havnt figured out who the victum is yet, my impatiance shud wait before striking , impatiance can lead to hitting the wrong target, now we dont want that do we?

i thought the new one was perfect, but what if ALL of this is true? i will see his halo dissappear as he turns into a red ugly creature, who knows what lies beneath the skin and run through his mind.

i knew it was too early to get into a relationship but i thought i knew , perfect was perfect, it cant change, but it can, maybe it did, maybe it will. im not ready for hurt. which is why my mind tells me to end it but my heart has no opinion, i CAN live without him but, it can become <3....burned ashes of what use to be....

i have no clue what to do , i havnt confrunted him about having another GF yet, i dunno when it should be brought up and if it is, and if its not true, he will accuse me of not trusting him , but who in the right mind WOULD after hearing all this?????

this relationship shud be my best, but , its turning into a big tornado of what is and whats not....
is it?....or is it not?.....

i wish i could no....

stressing like crazy

if only i can turn my chemistry book into chewing gum and chew the information into my system!. this is getting way too hard, and the pressure is too much to handle. i cant even get any peace and quiet in my own house! my family is so loud! i cant even concentrate , i read something but instead of understanding it im more of distracted with the noise of my surroundings. i wish i could just float out of this world and take my home work and studies into outer space where everything is quiet.

this is my last year of school and i plan on getting at least B's in all of my subjects, but if the noise in my house continues to be as loud as this i think im probably gna fail!!!. not only that, when i DO actualy find a space where there is the quiet that i need , my siblings seem to follow me, its like a curse of " you will have no quiet for the rest of your life" by the loud witch!. its neverending!.

this is me....                                                                       THIS IS WHAT I NEEEED!!!!

WHYY did i have to be born a GIRLLL???

im so frekin maaaaaaaaaaad!!!! , i cant go to universtiy in canada cuz apperntly im a girl and i cant handle myself if "something happens"!! this is an OUTRAGE. now im gan have to apply to a shit local universiy filled with freaKS!!! OMG!!  way to crush a persons dreams! UGHHHHHHHHH . I want to study nutrition but apparently if theres no universtities arond that offer nutrition maybe i should " DO SOMETHING ELSE" .
WHAAAAAAAAAT? just give up on a dream like that and do something else? because its more conveniant ??? I . DONT. THINK. SO!!!  or maybe i should just NOT go to universty that would be even more conveniant!!! UGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH so MAAAAADDD. and i hate buisness!! or IT!!! im shit at them and they just SUCK! so mad i cant even describe....sometimes its better off to be born a boy if thats what they think....

randomness

so i used this shampoo thats suppose to be anti dandruff but it CAUSED dandruff isnt that crazy???

im also trying to do chem hw but i cant be botherd, 3 pages of q's and im just toooo lazyyy. im also trying to think of a way to get this annoying freind who keeps on bugging me and calling me etc. shes nice and all but i need SPACE. im too nice to say anything so i have to take it any way . i also bought a new hockey stick on my way back from the dentist appointment !! :)

my first blog...

Ive always wanted to do a blog that would help me clear my mind and share my thoughts and experiances with people, so today is the start of a new experiance, who knows what comes out of this but its worth a shot eh :P.